|eehh too much family guy...naaah u can never have too much!
||[Feb. 20th, 2005|10:22 pm]
|[||im feelin this
|[||is anybody listenin
*im gonna grab my girl and head to the beach..HICK-A-DOO-LA!
*we're gonna all hang 10 and maybe then..HICK-A-DOO-LA!
*cuz imma hick-a-doo-la boy! and imma hick-a-doo-la girl!
*and together it is a hick-a-doo-la world..HICK-A-DOO-LA!
*mr. quagmyer (sp?) what does hick-a-doo-la mean?
*WHAT DOES HICK-A-DOO-LA MEAN?!
*hick-a-doo-la's that feel u get when ur with ur best gal!
*its cheerin for the hometeam!
*its chatchin the perfect wave!
*its obeying ALL the rules
thats been in my head forever...
i feel like crap. i have the worst cramps in the world, and i am so tired, even tho i just woke up from a nap. im thirsty, even tho i have a cup of water. idk...
were back from NH. i didnt do much. i beat jenna at pool 4 times! i can never beat anybody cuz i suck so bad. but im gettin better, and my HJ techniqe is workin lol.
ooh, i found out shaughn IS going to Iraq, at the end of the year i think...-.- i dont want him to go, what if somethin happens? i dont know what id do with myself....i wish we would stop fightin with ppl, so many ppl are dying, and its so sad (except when the Iraq ppl die and shyt, dam them all to hell!)
ive always hated it when people hated me before they knew me....and here i am, wishin to all hell that this girl, who ive never met in my life, would die. i feel like if she was gone, id stand a chance again...and maybe just a little bit, i am a tad bit jealous of her, and i think shes the luckiest person alive.
somehow, i miss something and feel like i lost somethin....when i never even had it...im not sure thats even possible but, maybe it is.
i wish there was a way to erase things...like say i wanted to erase garrett for example....they hooked me up to somethin, and sed think about him and what ever peices of my brain lit up, they killed, that way there'd be nothing left of him. and you could do that to what ever you wanted. i wish it was real, id be able to erase so much shit....i bet id be happier. in a way....i kinda wish i could erase garrett....i mean, i luv him more then n e thing (why? i do not know...) but sometimes i feel like if i never met him and knew him, i wouldnt be so stressed out by having something i want so badly, around and there, when i know, nothing in the world could give it to me. but then again, if he was never there, i might not even be alive right now....i cant exactly say that'd be a bad thing tho...being dead, maybe better, but then again...ive realized that if i had killed myself last christmas (not the one that just passed the one before that) then i never would have seen Samantha, the brightest light in my life right now...never of really gotten to be good friends with garrett...still be kissless....and then if i called myself n e of the other times....more that id never get....i mean, its hard to make it to each day, but ever once in a while, something so great happens, and it makes all that pain worth it....im just afraid nothing good will ever happen to me again -.- ive lost the best thing in my life, yes i have it back sorta, but what can ever replace that? idk....
to someone and u dont know who....
i hope shes a fuckin bitch and makes u so misrible and lies to u and all kinda of other shyt
sry...i really needed to get that off my chest....its like everytime i read somethin...its everywhere...i love u i love u to, o jesus stfu. o.o
i have this really weird craving for...no, not pizza...no...will u shut up! for......hand cuffs and pointy teeth lmao.
and now i leave u with one more song in my head...
*j-j-just like the bad guy, on lethal weapon 2, ive got diplomatic immunity, so hammer you cant sue. i can write grafitti even jaywalk in the street, i can riot loot, not give a hoot, and touch your sisters teet CANT TOUCH ME! CANT TOUCH ME! (what in gods name is he doing?) CANT TOUCH ME! (i believe its the worm) STOP! peter time! imma big shot, thers no doubt, light a fire and pee it out, dont like it? kiss my rump, just for a minute lets all do the bump...CANT TOUCH ME! yea..do the peter griffin bump CANT TOUCH ME! im presidental peter, interns think im hot, dont care if ur handy capped, ill still park in your spot, ive been around the world, from heartford to backbay, its peter, go peter, MC peter, yo peter, lets see regis rap this way CANT TOUCH ME!......
....except you, you can touch me
ooh fuck i have really bad cramps....ive never had this much pain in my life
im so sad, so empty, so misrible, so blah....will i ever be happy again? i would say no